God provides

Time puts things into perspective, although it is only a human construct. From 8am-4pm we have aided the sick, fed the hungry, and clothed the naked. We got so much more accomplished In the amount of time I would have spent at school. It makes me feel like my whole life I have been wasting time when I could have been easily doing something much more productive. The question I ask myself is: What can I do to make the world a better place from West Virginia? No matter how much I wish I could stay in Haiti to serve, I have an education to finish first. Then with that education I will be able to do more for the people of West Virginia and other places in the world.

     It’s hard for me to go back to real life once I leave Haiti. I imagine it is he same way for every missionary. Going from spending 15+ hours serving the Lord through the mission field of Haiti to laying in bed at 12pm in my 100k home is one of the hardest things for me to do. How can I serve the Lord from home when all I feel is guilt?

     It's important to remember that while life eventually goes back to normal, you don't have to go back to normal. The God that gave you those incredible feelings and experiences abroad is the same God at home. One of the hardest parts of returning home is that people don’t seem to care about the orphans I made friends with, the people with orange hair and bloated bellies, or the political situation of the country. My plan is to realize that the trip opened my eyes, but not everyone else’s. To keep the depression to a minimum when I get home, I plan to pray and let God guide me into my next mission at home.