Trust in Him

Day 2
Today was filled with many firsts. My first time giving a shot, my first time analyzing the amount of protein in someone’s urine, and my first time assisting with a pelvic exam. To anyone not in the medical field this probably sounds absolutely horrendous, but to me, this was a life changing day. As you can imagine, nursing school is tough. School has always come easy to me so actually having to study is not something I enjoy doing. Lately I have been tossing around the idea that I wasn’t smart enough to do nursing anymore. I mean wouldn’t it just be so much easier to study something else? As I was really considering changing my major, God slapped me across the face with his plan for my life...
    Today was my first time ever working in the clinic. In years past I’ve mostly just worked with the kids at the orphanage because that’s what I was good at. I didn’t wanna be in anybody’s way, so I just stayed in my comfort zone and connected with the kids. Now I’m not downplaying how amazing it is to strictly work with kids and build relationships, but actually taking on the role of a nurse at the clinic was amazing. Having not started clinicals or ever actually working in the medical field, I assumed I would just be sent off to organize or count pills. That was definitely not the case. I was sent right to work mixing up lidocaine and ceftriaxone and giving people shots in the butt. I’ve never touched a syringe in my life, let alone shoot an antibiotic into someone’s butt! Not only was I physically helping someone, I was building relationships with these patients. Actually working hands on and administering medication to people who truly need it is the most rewarding feeling I have ever felt. After leaving the clinic and going to lunch, I thought, “okay God... you win again this time. I’m going to dedicate myself to school because nursing is my passion and it is what I’m meant to do.” Along with this revelation, I also realized what type of nursing I have been called to do. After one day of doing this work it has become clear that God is calling me to be a travel nurse in the mission field.
     I’ve always thought my plan was to stick around in Huntington the rest of my life, but lately that doesn’t seem to be the case. My heart has always been called to missions overseas, I just didn’t know how possible it truly was but then I remembered Matthew 19:26, “Jesus looked at them and said, with man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
     This verse stuck out to me today, so I began to study it. When I’m studying a verse, I like to switch to different versions of the Bible to see how it changes. In the message, the same verse reads, “”Jesus looked hard at them and said, “No chance at all if you think you can pull it off yourself. Every chance in the world if you trust God to do it.”” This version changed the way I looked at this verse completely. I have a very independent personality. I like to get things done by myself without any help. Whether it makes things more difficult or not, I would rather do everything myself. Well, God doesn’t work like that and I’m learning that more and more everyday as I continue to fail over and over again. Just like the verse says, no chance AT ALL if you think you can pull it off yourself. EVERY CHANCE IN THE WORLD if you trust God to do it. Wow... what a blessing. As great as it feels to get something accomplished alone, we don’t truly get anything done without God. He gives us the strength every day to carry out the tasks that are presented to us. He blessed us with the gift of life. He doesn’t tempt us or make us go through trials that we cannot endure. Today has been filled with many lessons. From shooting someone in the butt with antibiotics to understanding what my true passion for life is. I was put on this earth to help others and that is just what I am going to do.