Well, today was the day that I have been dreading since we first got here. Going on a mission trip overseas for a week is never enough time for anyone. I always start to wonder, am I doing more harm than good? Is being here for just a week confusing and upsetting to Cardy? Because every time I leave it feels like a part of my heart is ripped out and left here not only with Cardy, but with the people of Fort Liberte.
Going back into real life American time is so so difficult. It’s hard to go from not stressing about when and where we need to be to only stressing about when and where we need to be. Although this week is filled with hard work and dedication, it is the most relaxing week out of the year for me. I get to do what I love, help people. And when I’m able to constantly keep my mind on doing the one thing that I love, I don’t have to worry about pointless problems back home. God is going to take care of everything in his time and in that I am at peace.
Alright, back to the main reason I bawled like a baby today, I had to leave Cardy again. I have been seeing him here since he was six years old and now he’s nine and about to turn ten. Every year I come, he still holds onto me like he’s that little six year old boy. It doesn’t matter how big he gets, I will still always hold him in my arms. Let me tell you, this kid does not have a care in the world. He is the most content and joyful kid I’ve ever met. I can’t imagine how much love I will have for my own child one day, because I have so much love for Cardy. I thank God every day for placing Cardy in my life. Sometimes I feel like I needed him more than he needed me.
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